you ever have those moments where you just all of a sudden look around and its like.....ummmm what is life even right now, what am I doing with my life? What am I even doing right now?
It's Crazy!
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Thursday, May 8, 2014
A Prayer For Today
Lord,
I'm not ok, this is where you step in right, I'm not eating, I'm over spending, might be losing weight, irritable, and I'm tired......of everything. I don't want 2012 to happen again.
Help me Jesus,
Your the only one that can!
I love you!
Your daughter Britne
I'm not ok, this is where you step in right, I'm not eating, I'm over spending, might be losing weight, irritable, and I'm tired......of everything. I don't want 2012 to happen again.
Help me Jesus,
Your the only one that can!
I love you!
Your daughter Britne
Friday, May 2, 2014
aching to blog!
I haven't blogged in over a month!!
As I sit here pleading the blood of Jesus over my stomach in this restroom, I decided to blog, cause it's keeping me calm....if I don't panic it doesn't get worse!!! I've been eating totally wrong this past week, especially today cause I barely ate at all because I was in chemo with my mom since 7:45 am, so my stomach is reprimanding me for that!!! I'm super tired and have to drive home!! Ok I think my stomach is better, praise God!!! I'll go home now!! Thank you Jesus!!
As I sit here pleading the blood of Jesus over my stomach in this restroom, I decided to blog, cause it's keeping me calm....if I don't panic it doesn't get worse!!! I've been eating totally wrong this past week, especially today cause I barely ate at all because I was in chemo with my mom since 7:45 am, so my stomach is reprimanding me for that!!! I'm super tired and have to drive home!! Ok I think my stomach is better, praise God!!! I'll go home now!! Thank you Jesus!!
Friday, March 14, 2014
Its π Day!!!!
3-14....GET IT!!
π ways I will celebrate Pi-Day!!
1- Tell my mom I'm going to go on a trip out of the country by myself! She will tell me I'm not thinking rationally!! HAHAHA (she really tells me that a lot)
2- Make some π-neapple lemonade!
3- Run 3.14 miles
.14- Eat Pie!!!
so Today is Pi day!!
Honestly I absolutely love Pie....wait Pi....wait π...wait no 3.1415926.....Oh you know what I'm talking about!! As a Math person, math major, math teacher.....I find that Pi transcends the Math world!! Because its everywhere in the natural world, thats why I find so many people who hate math, but love Pi....wait what??
π ways I will celebrate Pi-Day!!
1- Tell my mom I'm going to go on a trip out of the country by myself! She will tell me I'm not thinking rationally!! HAHAHA (she really tells me that a lot)
2- Make some π-neapple lemonade!
3- Run 3.14 miles
.14- Eat Pie!!!
so Today is Pi day!!
Honestly I absolutely love Pie....wait Pi....wait π...wait no 3.1415926.....Oh you know what I'm talking about!! As a Math person, math major, math teacher.....I find that Pi transcends the Math world!! Because its everywhere in the natural world, thats why I find so many people who hate math, but love Pi....wait what??
Anywho...check out the history of Pi if your interested!!
Click the Links!! (it'll save you the time of typing Pi into Google)
So how cool is it that one of my favorite shows Veronica Mars, that was cancelled, has a movie coming out TODAY!!! Pi-Day Friday!!! I will be going to see it today!!
Now let me tell you! I had a huge plan for today!! I was going to sell pies, and pi-neapple lemonade, and make cookies shaped like pie, and go to free day at the exploratorium!! BUT!! yea none of that is happening today, because
lol no I'm kidding....I wanted to soooo bad but I have other things that I need to do responsibilities.....like homework....prepare and study for two tests next week, clean my room, make dinner, and believe me I would have prepped early for this, but I feel as though God is working something in me with how I use to be with planning and this year I've planned stuff and it didn't go the way I expected and I am learning to not freak out when that happens!!
IS THIS GROWING UP!?
ok well back to Pi-Day
Did you know the celebration of Pi-Day was originated in the Bay Area...check out this link to learn more!! Just when I think living in the bay area can't get any better...
and now I bid you good day!! I have to start my day!!
Here are a few snap shots of me in my Pi shirts..representing like whaaaa...
And here are some cool informative, funny, Pi related videos!!! =)
Thursday, March 13, 2014
I couldn't stop the tears!
I don't like crying in front of people,
in public,
at home,
in my car,
where anyone can see me.....
I feel like I have the most horrible crying face....well maybe not as bad as Farrah, but my nose starts to run, my eyes get all crusty, my face is all wet....its just not a good look!
But today, I couldn't stop the tears....in public....I mean good thing no one pays attention to me in class, but still....ok so you wanna know what happened??
Ok I'll tell you! Gosh! Calm Down! I can only type so fast, if you want this to make any type of sense. =).
soooo...I'm graduating this semester from college. I was super excited going into this semester!
You know after I got the pastor to pray for me, and started trusting God!
Because the devil had a hold of my mind for a minute before school started....saying things like, "you know you can't do this" "your not gonna graduate on time" "you can't pass those tests" "you know your not smart enough" and I will be honest with you guys, it was getting to me, I lost focus, I became unmotivated, I was sad, I wasn't eating, I almost began believing those things being fed to my mind! But like I said, I went to the Pastor for prayer, and he repeated something I had heard before, but just let it fly away....When Satan is telling you that you can't/won't do something...it always means that you are going to do it, and its bringing forth something greater for you that he doesn't want you to get!
So now Satan can't get in my head anymore! I'm full force faithful to my God knowing he can and will do all things!! So now what else is left, my body and my family!! and boy has he been busy!! All these attacks on my body and my moms body, causing me to miss school, causing me to miss tests, trying to take me out of the game, trying to get me out of the will of God!!
So I haven't got to today yet have I....forgive me....here goes....
I was running late to class this morning, hadn't eaten or drank anything bad, the night before or this morning, but for some reason, out of no where I started getting excruciating pelvic pain, it was so hard for me to walk this morning, to do anything that involved moving anything below my waist. I don't know where it came from! I walked through it, confessing, I am healed, in Jesus name I am healed by your stripes....and by the end of the day, it was gone!!
I know I still haven't got to the tears part yet,
you see what had happened was...
I was sitting in class, confessing healing through this pain, and I started thinking about how satan has been trying to take me out, how he really is trying extra hard to make me not graduate! and then I thought about how each step of the way God has been there for me, never leaving me, continuing to bless me, with the favor of my teachers, they are the most caring, patient, and understanding teachers I could ever ask for. They work with me, and truly want the best for me! Another reason why I couldn't stop the tears is because of one of my friends/classmates, the care that he showed towards me, it was overwhelming, I was just so thankful in that moment, that I couldn't stop the tears....Lord knows I tried, but they came out, and it got to a point where wiping them away didn't stop them from coming, pressing my eyes didn't stop them, so I had to just let them flow, and that opened up my day for more!
Thank you Jesus!! I couldn't do anything without you!! I Love You!!
Thank you for reading my story...God truly does give this undeserving child much favor, and for that I am forever thankful!!
These were my seven cents!
& This is my life as Entirb!
Love Jesus, Love Purple, Live Beautifully, Be Sweet!
in public,
at home,
in my car,
where anyone can see me.....
I feel like I have the most horrible crying face....well maybe not as bad as Farrah, but my nose starts to run, my eyes get all crusty, my face is all wet....its just not a good look!
But today, I couldn't stop the tears....in public....I mean good thing no one pays attention to me in class, but still....ok so you wanna know what happened??
Ok I'll tell you! Gosh! Calm Down! I can only type so fast, if you want this to make any type of sense. =).
soooo...I'm graduating this semester from college. I was super excited going into this semester!
You know after I got the pastor to pray for me, and started trusting God!
Because the devil had a hold of my mind for a minute before school started....saying things like, "you know you can't do this" "your not gonna graduate on time" "you can't pass those tests" "you know your not smart enough" and I will be honest with you guys, it was getting to me, I lost focus, I became unmotivated, I was sad, I wasn't eating, I almost began believing those things being fed to my mind! But like I said, I went to the Pastor for prayer, and he repeated something I had heard before, but just let it fly away....When Satan is telling you that you can't/won't do something...it always means that you are going to do it, and its bringing forth something greater for you that he doesn't want you to get!
So now Satan can't get in my head anymore! I'm full force faithful to my God knowing he can and will do all things!! So now what else is left, my body and my family!! and boy has he been busy!! All these attacks on my body and my moms body, causing me to miss school, causing me to miss tests, trying to take me out of the game, trying to get me out of the will of God!!
So I haven't got to today yet have I....forgive me....here goes....
I was running late to class this morning, hadn't eaten or drank anything bad, the night before or this morning, but for some reason, out of no where I started getting excruciating pelvic pain, it was so hard for me to walk this morning, to do anything that involved moving anything below my waist. I don't know where it came from! I walked through it, confessing, I am healed, in Jesus name I am healed by your stripes....and by the end of the day, it was gone!!
I know I still haven't got to the tears part yet,
you see what had happened was...
I was sitting in class, confessing healing through this pain, and I started thinking about how satan has been trying to take me out, how he really is trying extra hard to make me not graduate! and then I thought about how each step of the way God has been there for me, never leaving me, continuing to bless me, with the favor of my teachers, they are the most caring, patient, and understanding teachers I could ever ask for. They work with me, and truly want the best for me! Another reason why I couldn't stop the tears is because of one of my friends/classmates, the care that he showed towards me, it was overwhelming, I was just so thankful in that moment, that I couldn't stop the tears....Lord knows I tried, but they came out, and it got to a point where wiping them away didn't stop them from coming, pressing my eyes didn't stop them, so I had to just let them flow, and that opened up my day for more!
Thank you Jesus!! I couldn't do anything without you!! I Love You!!
Thank you for reading my story...God truly does give this undeserving child much favor, and for that I am forever thankful!!
These were my seven cents!
& This is my life as Entirb!
Love Jesus, Love Purple, Live Beautifully, Be Sweet!
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Lesson 1: Day 70: Put my hands to work!
Dear Britne,
I thought about writing a letter to myself...
Dear Long Lost,
I thought about contacting that long lost...
Dear Best Friend,
I thought about asking my best friends...
none of these happened
I'm running towards nothing, and getting nowhere.
Today is Day 70 of 2014! MY infamous seven year! The year is about a 1/5 of the way through. When I think back to when I was looking forward to this year, I feel like I had so much stuff planned that was suppose to happen. I don't remember what any of that stuff is besides one thing....Graduation. I mean I think I thought that everything I ever wanted was just going to magically appear because I love God and the numbers align to seven for me on this year. I think I thought that I would just glide through everything so peacefully because this is the year, this is MY seven year! I think I just thought satan was just gonna forget about me simply because I found sevens to work for me in this year.
Thats what I do.....I think too much! I really do, so much to the point that after being on social networks for 9 years, they didn't distract me anymore from my thoughts, because Facebook itself asks you....what are you thinking?? So I after all these years found YouTube....yes I actually went to youtube for more than music and well yea I mostly just listened to music on there, thats what I thought YouTube was for!! So I began distracting myself. With YouTube families and gurus.....I even started a channel! but do you guys know how time consuming making and editing videos is!! I had to stop!! I can't spend six and seven hours filming, editing and posting videos and not spend that much time on my homework. It was becoming an addiction...so I stopped, I stopped making videos, and I will stop spending hours watching YouTube videos...I have to focus on the bigger picture! I'm graduating this semester, I can't let anything stand in the way!! God has something so big for me this year, I know it, I can feel it, but if I don't do the right thing, and let satan get the upperhand on me, all that God has for me won't manifest, and it'll be my fault!! I refuse to let that happen! It's Day 70, time to stop slackin...I'm ready for all God has for me, and I'm going to prove it! Theres so much more to this story, but that will come later, stay tuned you guys!!
This is my Journey from Day 70 to Day 144! Big things planned!
With God by my side nothing is impossible unto me!!
He said he would bless the works of my hands!
Lesson 1: Day 70: Put my hands to work!
These were my seven cents,
and this is my life as Entirb!
Love Jesus, Love Purple, Live Beautifully, Be Sweet!!
I thought about writing a letter to myself...
Dear Long Lost,
I thought about contacting that long lost...
Dear Best Friend,
I thought about asking my best friends...
none of these happened
I'm running towards nothing, and getting nowhere.
Today is Day 70 of 2014! MY infamous seven year! The year is about a 1/5 of the way through. When I think back to when I was looking forward to this year, I feel like I had so much stuff planned that was suppose to happen. I don't remember what any of that stuff is besides one thing....Graduation. I mean I think I thought that everything I ever wanted was just going to magically appear because I love God and the numbers align to seven for me on this year. I think I thought that I would just glide through everything so peacefully because this is the year, this is MY seven year! I think I just thought satan was just gonna forget about me simply because I found sevens to work for me in this year.
Thats what I do.....I think too much! I really do, so much to the point that after being on social networks for 9 years, they didn't distract me anymore from my thoughts, because Facebook itself asks you....what are you thinking?? So I after all these years found YouTube....yes I actually went to youtube for more than music and well yea I mostly just listened to music on there, thats what I thought YouTube was for!! So I began distracting myself. With YouTube families and gurus.....I even started a channel! but do you guys know how time consuming making and editing videos is!! I had to stop!! I can't spend six and seven hours filming, editing and posting videos and not spend that much time on my homework. It was becoming an addiction...so I stopped, I stopped making videos, and I will stop spending hours watching YouTube videos...I have to focus on the bigger picture! I'm graduating this semester, I can't let anything stand in the way!! God has something so big for me this year, I know it, I can feel it, but if I don't do the right thing, and let satan get the upperhand on me, all that God has for me won't manifest, and it'll be my fault!! I refuse to let that happen! It's Day 70, time to stop slackin...I'm ready for all God has for me, and I'm going to prove it! Theres so much more to this story, but that will come later, stay tuned you guys!!
This is my Journey from Day 70 to Day 144! Big things planned!
With God by my side nothing is impossible unto me!!
He said he would bless the works of my hands!
Lesson 1: Day 70: Put my hands to work!
These were my seven cents,
and this is my life as Entirb!
Love Jesus, Love Purple, Live Beautifully, Be Sweet!!
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